Oof, hopefully this goes through.
...wow, that's really relatable. I honestly don't really know what to say besides that, because I honestly have the same problem. It's so hard to do things when you feel so out of place and everything and like...... wow, big mood.
I mean, I am friends and talk to them, I was just never super close with any of them, and I don't necessarily talk to them a lot. I just watch them talk to each other tbh lollll. :D Ikr lucky, but I used to be soooo dumb back then, too. I told my parents she was just a friend from school (idk, never really been very close or had a very good relationship with my parents and they've never supported me having online friends so like .........hehhh don't be like me when you grow up). *facepalm* I could've diiiiiiied tbh, but like we'd Skyped before?? Hahahaha. Idk. And like at least one person irl knew. She literally brought her entire family with her though, and yeah, I basically gave them a tour of downtown wherever I live and we all got ice cream hahahahahahhahaha I'm so dumb. *facepalm* Wow, what a nice trip down memory lane. o_o So long agooo.
Anywhooooooooooooooooooooooooo, idk, I've tried to convince myself I don't need good friends and can lose myself in math bc wow okay man math is actually so much fun and I love it so much you could maybe say I'm passionate (wow I'm a nerd), but like.... idk, I've realized that even though I don't mind isolating myself for the most part and even though I'm completely fine with not socializing on a regular basis, it's kinda unhealthy and like idk... I'm human, so I need human contact. And like......... I like hanging out with my friends, and always feel good after hanging out, so not really sure why I don't do stuff with them more. o_o So I guess my point is, you should stop hoping you won't need good friends. Because you need friends, and good friends are better than friends that don't really care. :D :D
No, to be honest, I have no idea who she is. o_o Kind of related, but are you glad the chat is gone? Or like, what do you think about it being gone? It wasn't really a big deal for me because I never really used it.
Dude, I'm sure it's not impossible. I will admit, though, finding good friends is actually hard??? ._. And it sucks, because I know there's people I would love to be friends with, but like... idk, I just think a lot of people are better than me, I guess? So, anyway, what are you looking for in a friend, then?
Yeah, I'm normally really bad about journalling too. But idk, I've been getting better at it, and like idk, I like to write about the good stuff that happens. And honestly, I don't even write that much either. o.o Writing something feels better than nothing. :D Also, right after break started, I started writing a MBer Christmas story (which I had wanted to do for a while, but then Becky posted the prompt, so then I had to xD), and wooooooowwwwwww it felt good to actually write, even though I'm really bad at writing stories and it's been literally years since I last wrote a story.
Okay, but my dude, you should try journaling again. I always feel dumb when I do it, and it makes me feel dumb, like... writing all of my thoughts out and being vulnerable makes me feel stupid, but it helps? Especially because I hate talking to people about my feelings and everything. So idk, it might help you? You should give it another chance. :D (Also, last night I tried "meditating" aka zoning out for like five minutes and not really thinking about anything in particular... just kinda sat there and let my mind intentionally wander, and like wooooooowwwwwwwww I felt so good after, idek why lollolololol I felt so stupid but it helped?). I don't even know why I'm telling you this lolll
I'm glad your Thanksgiving was good (oof, that was so long ago o_o). :D Did you buy anything when you went shopping? Lolll, you should've said something or asked if you could stop to get food. *facepalm*
Ehh, not gonna lie my mental health has, uhh, been declining since right before Thanksgiving/around that time, so Thanksgiving actually kinda sucked lol. I eventually made my muffins a couple weeks later, though. :D
Ooooooooooooooof, I'm tryna be a gucci engineer. I'm thinking maybe chemical, but like, not 100% sure. Do you know what you're gonna do after highschool?
I mean, if I'm gonna be honest, I was kinda annoyed bc idk like, you were a newbie? Still am that way with newbies, I guess (like it's not even just here on the MB, I tend to get annoyed by new people at work, I'm working on it tho). No one deserves people being rude to themmmmm, especially people that didn't really do anything on purpose to upset anyone. Also, my dude, you should scroll down a little on /347944 cuz I don't think you saw it. o.o