Really? Thank you. It's nice to be back?
Well, happy to collectively help you write more! (It's fun, but takes a lot of work!)
I, um...thanks. Ha, as weird as it might sound, that was a really comforting reply to read. It's true, and I've made like dozens of poems and songs and other things about it, but the part I hate is that I don't know how she'd feel about that. She used to love me writing stuff for her...but we didn't exactly part on the best of terms. It was situational, it was...wrong. It should never have happened. Most of the things in my life, even the bad things, I can look back on, and say, 'Maybe all that needed to happen'...but this I can't. It's the one thing I can't believe was really supposed to happen. It makes no sense, none. We loved each other, I know we did, why did she decide to leave me behind? Why would she be so cold about it, she was never cold, never, I didn't even know she was capable, and that was so shocking, I just couldn't understand. Then she took some things I said the wrong way, and here we are.
But it can't be my fault? I just couldn't understand, how could she have expected that from me? We said we'd never leave each other, we'd always have each other and take care of each other, how could she expect me to understand when she changed her mind so completely?
Sorry. I have problems. But I'm a lot better than I was before when I was here, so no need to worry, or send me any hotlines or anything. I'd probably just leave. Even then, I wasn't in danger, something the site failed to understand.
It's just that nothing can make me understand why this happened. Nothing except her, and she won't tell me. She's moved on, I can only assume, she doesn't care, so what do I do? Live, I guess. Live with knowing I'll never be able to understand, which is the hardest thing.
But you're nice, Becky. I'm glad they assigned you to this job, we really could have used someone like you before. Jon was nice, as I said, but the site was different back then. I'm just glad you're here, I guess...
Anyway, I know that's not really what this place is for. I asked a lot of questions, it's true, but not ones you could answer. Be nice, right? So you don't have to respond to that, I get it.
Here's a question you could answer: What do you like most about your job here?
I hope that everything is going well for you,