I have words that fill my mouth
they are heavy and hard to pronounce
they are there
But will anyone hear?
Forever I am fearful
I wish that I could speak
But I find myself worrying; will my
Deepest dreams be leaked?
Will my ideas be rejected?
will my feelings be affected?
The fear inside consumes
until I'm only standing in an empty room
Will I be mocked?
Will my peers be shocked?
I sigh and wonder wearily
Everyone's a potential enemy
My lips can’t move
no matter how hard I try
My fears grow more everyday
do I have any other choice than lie?
Then someone looks past
The veil hiding me
And I don't feel so alone
Maybe, even, I can break free
To break from these heavy chains
Of misery and mistrust
I only have to gain
There is no loss for me right now
I need to call out, call out loud
Can you hear this noise
I’m trying to make
Can you see me,
even when I’m being fake
Im trying to speak one word at a time
Its so hard at some moments,
but it’s a challenge I will take
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to get help
I'm trying and I'm happy
Because you're there and you alone
You are the one I need right now,
you are the one that can fix this now,
I’m doing my best but sometimes it’s not enough
I’m glad you are here
So I won’t disapear
They told you, called you
Useless, said you meant
Nothing, that you had no worth,
But I've seen you in the worst of
Times, I've seen the shine inside your eyes.