Hello. I'm not that well known around here, but I know quite a few of you guys. If you don't know me, my name is Tobias. I've been on here for the past few years. I'm going to be brief and apologize for disappearing without letting you guys know. I haven't been doing so well the past few months. I've been struggling with managing my T1 Diabetes, but thats not the worst part. Back in May the girl I had liked for years broke my heart. She broke it so much in fact that I haven't been doing so well since. I've gotten over her, but the damage is still there. On top of that, I sort of like someone that I could never be with no matter how much I wanted to. I'm not talking about the, "Oh I like them," kind of love, but the, "I love them to pieces and I want to be with them," kind of love. Love sucks. The real kind of love. No person should ever have to go through this kind of pain. Thats only half of it though. The school I go to is pretty bad. I hate it there. I had a chance to leave, but I was too wrapped up with the girl I liked that I decided to stay. I'm so lonely at the school. I try my best to fit in to the other kid's standards, but it is never enough. If I tried to change things I'd be outcasted. The, "friends," I have basically let me in as the Karen of the group I think. The person they let in just to be nice. But yeah, thats about it. As Cara said, "Everyone deals with pain and hurt in different ways, some attempt to survive, and other's lash out." I'm sorry if I'm not on that often. I'm going to try my best to. If I promised any of you something before I disappeared then I promise I will get back to it. Just give me some time.
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Under cloud, beneath the starsOver snow one winter's mornI turn at last to paths that lead homeAnd though where the road then takes meI cannot tellWe came all this wayBut now comes the dayTo bid you farewell