My family is from Puerto Rico, so I know it's important for me to learn spanish.
My twin brother had trouble processing words. The doctors said to choose english or spanish, and living in a America my parents chose english. I wished they separated me, and taught me spanish though. I can understand a lot, and I've been trying to speak it more, but it's not enough. When we go Puerto Rico I can't talk to my relatives or the vendors there. I feel like my family sees me as a stupid american. ( Puerto Ricans don't like Americans much, and I can see why.)
It's embarrassing when people find out I'm hispanic, learn that I can't speak fluently, and say that I'm not hispanic enough. That or it's pathetic that I can't speak my parents language. I know it shouldn't matter. Most don't know anything about my culture, but it still hurts.
My parents try to help, but I know they're angry that I'm not fluent. They don't speak to me in spanish a lot of the time, yet they still blame me. There is spanish class, but it's not good enough. I get embarrassed when I try to speak it, so I stop. And I know even if I do manage one day, I'll never sound native. I'll always sound like an American. I'm going to keep trying though, even if it takes years.
Sorry for talking so much, but I felt like I needed to say something.