This might just be because of recent things that have been happening, but I'm not sure, and I really don't know how to deal with this.
So, I'm pretty sure both of you know that I see a therapist for my problems, i.e inferiority complex, slight bi polar depression, attachment issues, etc. And lately it's been pretty regular, because of some.. stuff.
Anyway, I get stressed really easily, and that's been a contributor. But no one besides my therapist knows.
I act fine, and no one notices.
But lately things have been even worse. I friend of mine that I grew up with... um.
She got rid of herself.
And it's been having a bad effect on me. I try to keep up appearances, but I can't, because it's obvious. And my therapist doesn't understand my reasoning. She doesn't get it.
Which is why I turned you. Because I know you'll get it.
I don't want to follow in my friends footsteps, I'm just struggling. And it doesn't help that some of the users on the other forums are rude to me. Even some on here. I don't want to point fingers because that's not how I am.
I really just need someone to get what I'm going through.
I don't know, maybe it's because I'm still so childish. I latch onto things and don't let go, like my dumb obsession with celebs, and then when they find a girl I get depressed. Maybe it's my fear of failing. Maybe because I am a failure. Or maybe it's the hallucinations. Maybe its those annoying puppets that come out at night. Maybe it's the fact that I'm still afraid of the dark because of them. Maybe it's the Old Hag. (look it up.) I don't know.
I just want to be understood. I know you two can help.
(Mods, PLEASE. let this through. Please.)
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