"....Oh. So that's what happened." Anne asks. She brought her kneese to her chest as we stared at the ocean. My feet dangled off the roof, as I left my hoodie open. "....I feel sp empty Anne." I say honestly, "I don't know what I did wrong.....I don't know why...I don't know why it always has to be me." My hands clutch as I stare down at the people. "My trust has been stabbed and abused. I can't help but to be how I am now. I let a small light escape me to Maddie and it's been..."
"It happens, Jaidon-"
"No. How the heck can Caspian leave college and come back to highschool? That's ridiculous. And so suddenly she walked right up to me as if I was some trash she forgot to take care of..."
"Well. That wouldn't be to far fetched." Nick joked suddenly appearing beside me. "
"shut up, Nick.."
"You shouldn't complain to Anne. Your usually able to hold things up and make it seem like you don't care. What's difffrent?"
"I said to shut up--" I repeat, hiding my face.
"Jaidon. Really. This isn't like you."
"The the heck are you to say what's like me or not..." I
mutter and bring my head down lower, "You never even knew me....And you didn't bother to try."
Nick kept quiet as I can tell it hit him hard.
The wind spoke for us, howling and pulling my hair and clothes to dance with it. "You were right, Okay?" I say finally, "You were right about me though..."
Nick looked at me transfixed by my words.
".....it was hard enough to say the first time." I look into his eyes, with mine. Glassy, and full of pain but I twist my lips into a smile. "You were right...Nick."
Nick looked like he saw our mothers ghost. I kept hold of the expression, reminding him this is how it feels. To watch your brother smile when in pain. A reminder of our past. "Jaidon..."
He wrapped his arms around me in an embrace.
His arms grip around my, wrapping my heart in warmth. Whens the last time I....
I felt my other side be wrapped by Anne.
"why the heck..are you two..."
"It's alright Jaidon." Nick says, "To let it out sometimes I know how much she meant to you...."
"Get off me." I say, and get off the edge. "I don't need your sympathy. It's fine if she loves him. It's all fine."
I'll watch them in love again, and I won't interfer. I'll just...be alright that she's happy.
I teleport off the roof, and to my gloomy room again.
Man. Darn it. Darn it. Darn it. Darn it. Darn it. I'm so stupid'!! Why'd I do that with Nick!
Why'd I even talk to Anne.
Why'd I let them see me like that. I grab the mirror on nicks side and flung it on the ground. Destroyed the wardrobe's he liked to keep to tidy. I'm such an Idiot.
Why'd I even tell Maddie how I felt that day. Why was I so happy. Why was I so in love I didn't care. Why aren't I crying. What? Where'd that come from....
When I stare at the ground , I see myself. Little bits of my face scattered amoung the floor. The stupid Mirror.'
My eyes were..blue.... No red. Yellow. Dark blue. Neon blue, yellow-Augh. I stomp on the mirror shattering it more. And sit on the bed. I'm not gonna seem pathtic. I'm not. I'm not going to cry over something like this.
I walked out of the house, my hoodie secured, as I walked through the sidewalks of my hometown.
My eyes stared at my feet as I continued foward. She's not only broke up with me. She's left this world. She's basically dead. I remember today like no other.
The day I changed.