Adulting is hard, I'm with you there. I do a lot of nannying though so the work part of my life is spent as close to being a kid again as you can get! (While still somehow being in charge and an adult?? Haha) I haven't started drivers ed yet...hopefully this fall...
Thank you, I am definitely feeling better, and I finally have my voice back, so yay! Yeah, school is tough. The only time I have to myself now is if I wake up really early in the morning, which is so so hard! I've been trying to do that consistently though, because this year a friend and I are reading through the entire bible and doing that first thing in my day is what works best for me. ;)
I'm really looking forward to summer haha! I'm so glad I have a solid nannying job for this summer, finding work is such a catch 22: everyone hires when school is still in session, so if you want a job, you have to be overloaded with school and work at the same time, and if you wait until right when school gets out, hiring season is pretty much over and its reeeally hard to find a job!!! UGH. Oh well. I'll be working 20 hours a week for ten an hour, so that's not so bad, and I have a part-time cleaning job as well, so I'll be able to save a bit this summer. Money is just...WHY.
We just got nine new baby chicks. :) Three are mine, and I named them Maude, Myrtle, and Griselda. They're all blue-green egg layers and super cute. Griselda is freakin' LOUD though. :P
Hope you had a lovely Easter!
It is really good to have friends like that who will force you to be honest when you're struggling like that. You're not alone, sweet girl, and please don't hide from people who love you, that's really really dangerous. Do you know about the Butterfly Project? As I've struggled with self-harm in the past, its one of the things that really helped me a lot. If you don't, here be the rules:
1. When you feel like you want to hurt yourself, instead take a marker (or pen) and draw a butterfly in that spot instead.
2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, a friend, or someone who really wants you to get better
3. NO scrubbing the butterfly off, it has to fade naturally ;)
4. If you self-harm before the butterfly is gone, you've killed it. If you don't, it lives!
5. Another person may draw them on you. these butterflies are extra special. Take good care of them.
Will you draw a butterfly for me, Lani?
I will be praying for you every day, I promise. Blessings are really hard to see when we're in the midst of hard things, I know. But I promise you, if you start looking for them, they're definitely there and you will find them. Sometimes they're in disguise.
Stay strong, Lani! You can fight through this, and you will win! Remember, I'll be right here if you need me.
I'm sorry. :( Were you close to the person who passed away?
I already had my spring break. ;) School for me gets out earlier than it usually does, which is nice, because I'm SO ready for summer. Oooh, you like science? I bet you're super smart. ;) I have actually never been to camp in my life! It's okay with me though, I'm a bit of a homebody haha.
You can do it! Is the form really confusing though? I hate paperwork :D And yay! I will definitely be reading CAIE, and I'm really looking forward to that now! I'll post on your story thread when I'm done, okay?