So I didn't expect to get back to you this soon, but during my Driver's Ed class there is this 20 minute video on teen fatal crashes, etc. that I really don't want to watch, but can't skip. So I have it just playing in the background (no sound) and decided to take advantage of this time.
How did your doctor's appointment go? Is the protein thing for snacks or for meals, too? I was going to say that I didn't have a diet, but then again everyone does. I don't really follow one medically though. Just make sure to eat something every once in a while to avoid low blood sugar. I do try to eat more protein than carbs: cheese, peanuts, etc. You're right, proteins and fruits are probably among the most expensive stuff in the grocery store! We can't get super cheap fruit at the regular grocery store, but there are a ton of places to get fresh fruit around Florida. We got some honeybells (mmmmmm....my favorite!) from a nice orange grove in January, and coming up at the end of the month we will stock up on strawberries at the Strawberry Festival. I can't remember where you said that you lived, but you mentioned snow and that usually doesn't go hand-in-hand with fresh fruit. I do really like freeze dried fruit; maybe you could try it? Probably the same price, but sometimes it's good to shake stuff up a bit.
I wanted to talk and stuff, but didn't want to appear narcissistic, etc. So then I thought that if I added a dividing line that would someone make it better? Yeah, that doesn't make much sense. But I'm going to do it anyways.
Well, today's Ash Wednesday which is supposed to be a day of fasting and I am so torn about this. Because I can't not eat. It makes me like super faint. But then I kinda feel like I'm cheating. Like I am just taking advantage of some lame excuse. I don't know. I feel guilty? Do you fast today/Good Friday?
This is kinda what I almost didn't say. Because I felt whiny for writing about being sick and then responding to your way worse physically abusive story. Gah! So it's in invisible ink (plus tbh it's kinda disgusting).
Okay so the whole sinus pressure/infection is still happening, but on Sunday I thought it was a ton better. Then on Monday I wake up at like 7:30 (which is way early for me) with a bloody nose. And this totally displays what a squeamish person I am because that grosses me out. I seriously can barely type any of this. Anyway just got a tissue and read and pretended nothing was happening. And it didn't stop for almost an hour. I didn't really care, just tired and was upset that I was out of my box of tissues. But I have like PND and ended up swallowing a bunch of that blood. Which just sounds way super disgusting. Ick. And, ewwww ewww ewww ewww ewww, I ended up like spitting out most of it, but glossing over the rest of the details, I spent the day with an upset stomach and totally grossed out. So sorry if you were like trying to not be also completely grossed out, but you were warned.
I am like super upset about your bullying story. Stuff like that is the reason why I don't go to public school. I grew up in a small town where everyone was a family friend and there was like zero conflict. I guess that's considered "sheltered", because when I moved to Florida I seriously freaked out. Like, I knew about wars, etc., but I never knew stuff like getting beat up at school actually happened.
It's just super aggrivating. I mean, they had no reason to be mean to you. I can see why you are "paranoid"; I would be too. I feel like you are stuck in a similar (but super different) boat as me with your youth group. Not sure how much they know or how much you want them to know. Although, I am not afraid that I would be bullied/made fun of if I opened up; I'm just kinda a coward.
Are you still thinking of going back to school? Because to be real with you I don't know if that's a good idea. I'm conflicted. On one hand I know that I had kinda encouraged you to go back. But on the other hand, I don't know. It would be great for you to "get back on your feet" and Start Over. People change. But people never change. How about this: have you toured this new High School? That might be a good idea. Get a sense of the atmosphere and just observe a bit. Gauge the attitude.
I first thought that you should go and attack this problem, but given 9 lawsuits it probably wouldn't be very beneficial.
Did any of that actually sound like advice? Going back I don't think so. I'll try again later.
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